williamjonathan

tonight the snow falls.

it covers the grown.

then it melts.

tomorrow the sun will come up .

tomorrow the sun will go down.

tonight I sleep.

tomorrow I awake.

the moments between.

are the moments seen.

some in white.

some in flight

both day and night.

love.

over the past little bit life has been a little crazy, and yet so amazing.  I have been dealing with way more than I can handle, only to make it though each moment. One thing that I have been able to do is read, reading is my escape, my secret hideout. I have been finding myself just yearning for time to read and to be alone. I know that might seem a little different yet. But to be honest it has been the part of me just calling to get alone with God and rest in Him.

I read a lot of dead guys. I just love there thoughts. I aspire to be like them. I laugh under my breath as I write. One of my mentors that died in 1944, applied for his doctorate at the age of 21! I am not sure what to think of this. At times to be honest it is almost discouraging. Honestly I am full of passion and want to impact the world for God. So to see the greatness of those I dream of becoming like, has both been encouraging and discouraging. I have been asking God to help me process all these thoughts and how to feel. Then the  other day as I was reading it hit me.

i am like them.

I thought and placed my self in the seat of evaluation before the Lord. I though about who I  am, who they were, and who He is. As I spent time meditating of the facts I looked finding there was one thing placing me in this same group with my mentors. The Grace of God. Not a single one of us is worthy or deserving of the calling and gifts that Christ has placed in our lives. Ephesians 1.7 ” In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace.” There is nothing that they did, or anything I can do. “For by grace you(I) have been saved through faith. And it is NOT of your(my) own doing; it is the gift of God, not of works, so that no one may boast. Ephesians 2.8

Honestly, I had been dealing with this, and it was so simple that I was dumbfounded. when it hit me I sat in my chair as I was writing and just stared.

i am like them. so are you.

love.

Last night I left the hospital a little earlier than normal because earlier in the day I had received a call from a close friend  from college. She was going to be in town for the night because the organization she works with is stn. (an amazing non-prof), and they were helping at an event. snf and a fashion line Jedidiah have teamed up together to make a bangin’ short film about surfing in Bangladesh, and last night was a showing. So on a whim that I would be in Jacksonville she email me and I was, so I went happily to see her.

Once I arrived she informed me that another one of my friends was going to be joining us for the evening, which only made my night better.

I got there a little before the even was scheduled to be able to spend some time with my friends. When I first got there I was mock for asking what there micro where (I still don’t think that it makes me weird). So the conversation was going great and just as they were starting my second friend arrived. We watch  the film and it was on. I am not sure if it was because of everything that was going on plus the very moving shots, but I was at a few point hold back and wiping tears from my face.

After the movie the conversation pick back up. At first it started with very light matters and then I opened my mouth (which I have been working on) and the  conversation jump from casual to super serious. I finished running my mouth for a few minutes and apologized for nothing like I do most of the time. So then we all took turns talking about all the things that had happened in our lives in the past months since graduation. I am now helping plant a church, one of my friends is working for a non-profit in Hawaii, and the other is out at IHOP. I mean we all have and are embracing all that God has called us too. It is funny to sit back and look back at all that is taking place in all our live and we all just happened to be in the same place on this day. I love the was Holy Spirit works in our lives.

As the conversation moved on few honestly hours with out us noticing, we went over to a friends house. Where I fell in love with his art work and old cameras. Enjoyed a great cup of tea, thank you.

Before I left I knew that I wanted to pray with my friends. So we went into a room and prayed. At first it was rather funny, but then we just surrendered to what Holy Spirit was trying to do. Then I knew what the first thing I needed to pray was:

Matthew 6:9-15 the Lord’s Prayer

Then honestly for the next hour plus we just spent time in prayer for each other and what God was calling each of us too.

I am a radio!

Last night was a night of grace, I have been going through so much over this past season in my life, not even including what has just transpired over the past week. It was so refreshing and such a blessing to hear the amazing things that are taking place in others lives. Last night was a night that I needed, a night of grace, thank you.

love.

Hey sorry I have not been posting I have been helping everything get going with Alex’s page, www.alexrossupdates.com

I am hoping to write a couple of my own today.

Thank you for you prayers and support.

Love.

The last 40 hours have been crazy, I have got 2 hours of sleep and spent almost every waking hour in prayer and intercession. I just wanted to take a moment to say thank you.

Thank you for all of your prayers and support through this time. I know that God has heard are cries and prayers.

Nothing has change in the last few hours. Lets all continue to thank God for what He is doing and what He has done.

Lets take some time to rest in Him, so that we may strong for what ever He has or us tomorrow.

Love.

Ok so once agian thank you so much for you prayers and faith. I have nothing but good news.

I arrived back at the hospital this around 11.  Everything had been going well. There were few more family and friends that had arrived and that were on ther way.

I had nothing but encouragement and faith in my spirit for God to the impossible, he had already started, and he doesn’t really finish the things that He starts.

We have all been full of questions, hopes, fears, and doubts. Yet we all knew that we needed to place everything in God’s hands.

1 Peter 5:7 “cast your acares upon the Lord, because He cares for you.”

The bleeding had stopped, and the swelling is going down. (the impossible made possible, praise be to you.)

The doctor came in the room a few minutes ago, while Lisa and I were praying for Alex. He pulled her out side and told her the news and said that he had NO idea what, or what had happend. There was no explination. Lisa look at him, “It was a miracle of God.” To which the doctor replied…”Yes, it was.”

Please keep praying Alex still has a lot in front of him, but we know that God is going to with Alex every step of the way.

Psalm 117 “Praise the Lord, all nations! Exolt Him, all peoeples! For grace is His steadfast love towards us, and the faithfulness of the Lord endures for ever.”

Thank you everyone for all your prayers and support, it means the world to everyone. Please keep Alex in your prayers.

I will keep everyone uptodate here.

Love.

Ok. so as many as you know I have been texting and posting about a situation that some very close friends of the family and my family are facing.

Alex Ross IS a 16 year old, that is very close to my family. Yesterday he was shot in the head. I found out around 4′o’clock yesterday. By 430 I was packing a bag and then on my way to Florida from Charlotte. On the way down I text a good number of people that I knew would pray and intercede for him. The entire time I was on my way to Florida I was in contact with my family who was at the hospital with Alex and his family. One the way  my father informed me that the doctors did not expect him to make it long enough for me to get there.

At this point I was not sure what to think. I had already texted quite a few people and now it was time to pray.

One of my closet friends text me tell me that they, knew that God was going to use this situation for His glory. As I read the text message the power of Holy Spirit surged into me and I began praying in my prayer language and speaking life in the situation. I was reminded in my spirit of Matthew 9:18-26 and Matthew 10:5-15.

After a little while my Dad called me  and was in the room with Alex and I was able to pray with Him there and I know that while he might not have been conscious physically that he was aware spiritually.

I arrived around 1145, after getting a ticket 30 minutes away…. And ran into the ICU and was then able to see all my friends and family, and with in moments I was able to go back and see Alex. As I was walking into the room where they had him my I was not sure what to think. First for the first few minutes I just sat there and prayed in the spirit and meditating in mind, waiting on Holy Spirit to lead me to speak. After a few minutes of hold Alex’s hand I felt the Lord lead me to pray and read some scripture to him. I prayed and then read Psalm 142&23.

As the night progressed the majority of everyone had to leave. I was able to stay in the room with Alex, his mom (Lisa), stepdad(Chad), and older brother(nick).

I was in the room till about 7′o’clock this morning praying and worshiping.

I am leaving my house now. Thank you for you prayers and support. Please continue with us believing for a miracle. Spread the word and have everyone you know praying.

I will continue to keep everyone up to date, on here, on facebook, and on twitter. All are under williamjonathan.

Thank you again. For Alex to still be with us is already a miracle.

Love.

Today I am working on some stuff for Center City up at the Smelly Cat. I had to take a moment to reflect on life. I am so moved by everything that is taking place in my life and in the lives of all the others that connected with. The diversity of the places that we are each at in life, yet we are still so tightly woven.

One thing that I have learned is that you don’t have to have everything in common with someone to love them, you don’t have to look the same or even have the same interest. I have always heard people say that they have friends that they are nothing like, yet every one that is around them is the same, or the really do have a very diverse group of friends. I just for some reason was unsure of this. I am a total, “birds of a feather, flock together”, kinda guy and not that there is anything wrong with that, because I am realizing that is more that those are very important in everyones life. But at the same time diversity in beautiful.

Just because you are a little different than the person you are standing next to, doesn’t mean that you are different at all.

Love.

Tonight we were having a conversation about weapons, and how we wanted guns, then we moved to swords and how we wanted to start carrying them around.

Then it happened, the question came up…

“What type of sword would Jesus carry?”

Would he carry the sword from Final Fantasy, 300, Troy, or Braveheart?

What do you think He would be wielding…

Love.

Tonight, I went to my new favorite spot in Charlotte. It reminds me of my days in Israel.

The reason that I am writing is that the conversation tonight was, amazing. For me there are a few things that I need to make me fill fulfilled in life one of them was tonight. To me we embodied what I feel is a perfect picture of what conversation with friends and believes should be. We were in a place that was full in most idea “worldly”. I am a firm believer of, “in the world, but not of the world” (John 17).

As we sat we had a beautiful conversation about the Holy Spirit and life. I giggle as I write, because I could almost cry. The diversity in the upbringing of each of us in our faith, yet we all came to common ground through Jesus. (i.e. New Testament)

Last night I was in Ashville, singing my lungs out. Night shearing my heart.

Prayer: Thank you God for the moments like I have had in the past few nights and days. I know that You are making me into who You and desiring me to be. You are all that I need, thank you for letting me see you in others. Help me to continue seeing you in the eyes of others. You are truly all I need.

Love.