So yesterday was my birthday, as many of you know. I turned 26… I am very scared of this birthday for a few reasons, one I well I am getting closer to 30 and for some reason I am fearful of that number. Secondly, as I look back on all the conversations that I have with my friends who have pass 25, there is a consistency of “after 25″ issues, like you get fat, your body hurts, you start loosing your hair… and these are just the main things that are popping up in my mind as I type. Don’t take me the wrong way, I am not an ageist… I just don’t want to be older, I was quite satisfied with 25.
This past year has brought much change with it, as I am sure that 26 will bring its own mix of change to the story of my life. I am hoping and praying that I will be a little easier to handle. Because honestly I am a little fearful of what lies ahead. I know that through Holy Spirit and family/community I will be able to face whatever comes my way. I just wouldn’t mind a more joyful year.
I was afraid of yesterday and I am a little fearful of today, but the one thing I know is that I have no need to fear, for my God is with me and if he is with me nothing can take me down.
Thank you so much to everyone who said happy birthday yesterday, it meant much more than you know.
God as I move into this next season, into another year. I pray that I would follow you, that I would listen. That I would not depend on my own strength, but solely on you. I pray that every morning I will wake fresh and new in You. That I will move empowered with a new boldness through Holy Spirit.
I thank you for carrying me through this past year and thank you in advance for you protection and provision this year.